Claudia Chan

Professional Certified Life Coach
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Life is friggin' Exhausting

May 22, 2024

So my coach is asking us to write things that is true to us. And this is something that is true to me, which is this...

Life is friggin' exhausting...

I was just thinking about my life.

Since the day I was born, I felt like I was thrown into this current.

Needing to perform at school, get good grades, pass exams, get into a good university, study the necessary courses to graduate.

So that I can get a job. Keep working, make money, get to the next step.

Go back to school, get a Masters.

Then find a person, get married, have kids, make sure they’re ok. Make sure we are on top of things.

Why?

While growing up, my mom kept telling me and my brother that life sucks.

And I resented her, for a very long time because I kept thinking, then why the heck did you bring me into this life?

So I didn’t want to have kids.. because life sucks (and that was how I felt).

And I desperately wanted to get out of it.

So I built up other parts of my life, like building my business.

Because in the back of my mind, I wanted to get out of this 💩 hole.

And my coach just bombed me, because she said, stop asking for your business (or whatever you do) to heal your wounds.

While sitting through this, I realized I carry a lot of my money insecurity wound, my insignificant wound, my not smart enough wound, and many more...

I have to heal all of these friggin bull💩 on my own.

And not rely on my business to heal me.

So I ask myself what do I really need for these healing to take place?

And the deeper answer is, I need rest, I need fun.

I need to care about what I really need first.

And yet I am too exhausted, so my answer is, I don’t know. Yet.

So I’ll just float down the river for a little bit and let it carry me wherever it goes.

And see what happens next... nothing has gone wrong.

If you’re feeling the same way, I want to let you know that you’re not alone.

Claudia Chan

Professional Certified Life Coach

TORONTO, ONTARIO CANADA

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